Psalm 51:16/17 (the msg)
Going through the motions doesn't please You, a flawless performance is nothing to You. I learned God worship when my pride was shattered. Heart shattered lives ready for love don't for a moment escape Gods notice.
As I read this passage three things began to surface in me. The first is that a performance based relationship will keep you in a state of always seeking perfection and completion other than Gods presence alone. The second thing is that being desperate for God no matter what season you are in will always lead you into deeper "God worship" moments. The last thing is that living brokenness "heart shattered" lives is what moves the heart and hands of God. In fact it's what leads us to seeing His faithfulness over and over again. If you aren't desperate for the voice of God start there. The word desperate is defined by Webster as this; done with all your strength or energy and with little hope of succeeding. My whole life I have been desperate to succeed but only in the eyes of others never fully seeing Gods overwhelming grace and affection for me. This year is closing out and my word is peace and I have never felt such peace in my whole life. The applause of people are silencing and the heartbeat of Jesus is growing louder. I am choosing to follow the footsteps of my King and not the footsteps of my dreams. I am choosing to dwell in the beauty of Gods presence and saturate myself with His word. To saturate means you fill something completely with something else. God fill my heart with ALL of You! Ladies in His presence the fear of brokenness fades and the courage of waiting, being still or stepping out is what will sustain you. Happiness is an emotion that is evoked by false pretense and its held in the palm of circumstances, love, friendships and often our dreams and material things. Joy however is rooted in our intimacy with God. To be blessed simply means; connected with God. We tend to let our happiness stem from blessings that have nothing to do with being connected with God. I have found out that the level of approval you think you need is never enough but the wisdom that comes from letting God fill your tank not only brings you a joy that you can't contain but a life filled in fullness. We have to be in Gods word there is no other way to learn, gain guidance and fully connect to His heart. Writing Gods word on our hearts sets up and positions our lives for deeper intimacy, a deeper passion and a growth that leads to world change.
For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, declares the : I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts. And I will be their God, and they shall be my people.
It's time you stand before God with all your brokenness pain and all and know that when you have positioned your "heart shattered" life before the God of the universe He will see you and He will restore you. Let the cry of your heart be this today..
God I want you and nothing more!