How many times have you been let down by someone? I can remember times all throughout my life where I depended on people for happiness and for a level of peace. I remember as a little girl watching and looking for my dad to show up at my dance competitions or pageants and when he didn’t show up I would have such a knot of disappointment in my stomach. I do however remember being at a clogging competition at Carowinds in Charlotte and as I walked on stage I didn’t notice my competitors, my friends, or even the judges. I saw a man standing at the very back alone and leaning against the pole. As I looked with such intent I realized it was my dad! I was so excited that I remember clogging as if it was the only time my dad would see me. I won first place, in fact I won overall that day. I would have done anything for my dad to notice me growing up but even deeper I truly wanted to depend on his word. He would say he would do this, be here, give that and in the end I would always be disappointed. I created a level of emotional dependency on him and yet nothing ever came through to give me a peace of mind that he wanted to be a part of my life. Over these past few weeks I have had to depend on everyone for everything. For food, transportation, getting in and out of the bath tub, washing my clothes, handing me this and that you name it. It has frustrated me and yet given me a deeper understanding of what dependency on my Creator needs to look like. I shared yesterday about trusting God and the level of trust that I need and still lack in my own life. Today I am reminded of how dependency on God literally brings not just peace but PERFECT peace. In Isaiah 26:3 it says this ..
You will keep in PERFECT peace the mind that is DEPENDENT on You
for it is TRUSTing in You.