I have started this new workout program at the YMCA with a personal trainer. I hit a plateau for a few months and now since I am not working I decided to turn up the heat on working out and really focus on getting over this hump and finish what God started in me. I was so nervous when I started but I love my personal trainer. Stephanie knows her stuff, understands my passion for losing weight and pushes me in the areas that I am afraid. When we are following Jesus we often come to Him with some request that are bold and some with a prideful heart. We ask out of personal gain and beg for him to do things in our timing and yet when He doesn't speak in our timing our anger towards Him speaks louder than the sweet whispers of His grace and direction. I believe that when we truly understand who God is we can then move past it being about us and really move into that place of just being still in His presence and letting that be enough. The first thing I love about Stephanie is her knowledge. The first day i met with her she explained so much about the body and food that would help me understand the purpose behind working out and eating certain type of foods. Jesus also knows everything about my dreams because He not only birthed them in me He created those dreams. He knows my future forgot my past and wants good for me despite my weaknesses. He can see beyond my questions and fears and is able to provide peace and endurance along the way. The second thing about Stephanie is that she understands my passion for losing weight. She encourages me by cheering me on, praises my effort and doesn't shame me when I can't finish a set of weights or crazy leg lifts. Jesus also knows my passion! I am really learning that its not about a certain calling. It is simply serving Him in every opportunity I am given. Out of my surrender comes a specific passion but He has to to be my passion first. He handcrafted me into His liking. He formed me and called me His masterpiece. He is never ashamed of me or disappointed in me. He knows my hearts desire and said to ask ANYthing in his name and it will be given to me. He said He will blow my mind and I am excited to see what happens next as I take one step at a time in Him. The last thing I mentioned was that Stephanie pushes me in the areas that I am afraid of. I hate being around all those people lifting weights, and running on the machines next to me. I realized it's my inability to do those things so I have refused to do them in the past. Stephanie makes me ... seriously she makes me!!! The cool thing is that she actually does them with me! I love that she knows that those machines and weights will benefit me and the fear isn't a factor when training me. I simply love that! Jesus is the very same way, He provides for me truth to push me through fears and even more He is with me! He knows what scares me and He said you can overcome it because I overcame the WORLD! When you sit back and let these truths sink in, it changes your view of God your view of yourself and you realize that NOTHING is out of Gods reach.
(Jeremiah 29:11-13 ESV)
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord , plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with ALL your heart.
God I give you this day because you created it to begin with. You told the sun to rise the birds to chirp and controlled the wind and I get to enjoy the beauty of it all. God let me rest in the truth that you see beyond my fears, distractions and disobedience. God forgive me, push me, mold me and set me in the direction of YOUR heart! Here I am- USE MEq